You have chosen the Hierophant and the 5 of Cups.You have certainly been through some emotional disappointments. There is a partial loss and the mourning of a relationship around you. You will move on eventually, but you have a feeling of being left behind and let down. Things did not live up to their expectations. This upset could be leading to make you feel that you are bored or apathetic and negative about situations around you. You must be very careful not to indulge too heavily in any excessive alcohol. Here is a tendency to be melancholy and possibly leaning a little too heavily on something that will just block things out. The 5 of cups also tell us that there are two fantastic opportunities around the corner for you. Even though your perhaps not ready it is important to be forewarned, forearmed and ready with hope in your heart, that one day you can be truly happy yet again. You will once again get the keys of life. At the moment you feel full of hypocrisy as if you're going against the grain of what you believe in. Maybe you're exploring new emotions, maybe you always go by the book of morals and ethics and maybe you feel apathetic that such things have done you no good, but possibly it is time to look more spiritually into yourself and realize that the material value of things is not as important as it has always seemed. It is now more important to be fully stimulated, as a human being and feel that you are living and experiencing life. Even feelings of sorrow, doubt, and unhappiness are what make us know that we are truly alive. Without sorrow we would never know that we have joy. Nature is all about harmony. There is someone wise around you. Possible someone that is a mentor to you, who could lead you into new experiences, so you could experiment and find out a little bit more about who you truly are. This is looking more on a spiritual or philosophical level rather than the materialistic side of life. You have realized there is more to life than simply earning a dollar or gaining knowledge. Be open-minded. Choose wisely and carefully and now that you will stimulate yourself through some sort of gut reaction to something where you feel, you must explore a little bit more. Within 5 months you will find that your sorrow is far behind you and you have truly turned your life into something joyful, profound and worthwhile.