You have chosen death and the 9 of Wands. The death card never shows a death of the physical self or a death in the future. It's the death of an old self, a part of you that is changing. It's about transformation and moving on to a very new stage in life. It's a card of very big changes and life changing events, total transformation. It's time now to look at your reactions and defend yourself. you've been trying to do this but without success. Things have become a problem, particularly linked with work. you've been doing far too much and physically you're worn out. you've been very stubborn. you've been fighting a losing battle and now you've realised it's time that you must surrender but you continue to try to protect what is yours and you're feeling oppressed. you've got to surrender. Physical illness will take it's toll on you if you continue to do so much. Stop trying to protect what's already got out of hand. you're exhausted and tired and trying to still battle on. It's time now for total transformation and to make some sweeping changes. this is to do with your actions. you've got to go on an adventure and learn to delegate and to realise that things have got out of control. You probably have a lot of links with the outdoors and lots of travel and movement is coming into your world right now. This is a time for you to be enthusiastic, not tired. you're physically creative but you need to realise when something isn't working and to walk away from it and to start a new chapter. You may have been expecting changes but you need to make them happen. To continue like this will be difficult to cope and you'll find that things will change and you'll have no influence on it. This is time for you to make sure you accept the changes and that you lead a brand new you into something that is rebirthing and starting afresh. you've got to cut your losses, get rid of the old and realise that it had nothing but problems. Now it's time to let go, for you've made a decision, now look to the future.