You have chosen the Death card and the 4 of Cups. The Death card never shows a Death of the future or a Death of the physical self. It is just the Death of an old self, a part of you, a habit that has changed. this is a time of very big changes of life changing events. This is to do with the 4 of Cups telling us that you have felt emotional dissatisfaction and that you are dwelling on something that has spoilt something for you. You are feeling restless and sorry for yourself. There is a missed opportunity and you've felt very disillusioned. This led to a period of apathy which put you in a bit of an emotional rut. You are simply bored with routine and you had a wish to change life to see if the grass was greener on the other side. We an offer has now come and the hopefulness that you've wanted is here. Your emotions are changing and you are starting to feel satisfied with life again. This is because you went through your feelings and found that you had quite a deep fear of being controlled by others. This created the inner tension within yourself. You then worked on your creative self and decided that a touch of drama was necessary. You are finding that you have a sensitivity to others where you feel quite intense about this person and determined to see it through to the end. You have quite a tough exterior but inside you're soft and gentle, quite vulnerable in face but you have managed to put this sophisticated, glowing image to the outside world which can fool people but you have found somebody who is like minded where you are prepared to expose the real you that has stirred up some passionate feelings of love and emotional security. This is quite an exciting time of self discovery. If this has not happened already, it is about to take place. This is a really exciting time for you because you're allowing yourself to explore the deep and passionate side of your nature.