You have chosen the Hermit and the 3 of Swords. The 3 of Swords explains that your past has been haunting you and the Hermit is a card of reclaiming the past. You must now look at your thought process and work out what happened and to acknowledge that you did the best you could at the time and so did other people. Blame goes nowhere, it's one of those situations where you must realise that you have become experienced through this problem. This is not the first time you've had this situation, it has recurred several times, but the 3 of Swords is explaining this is now coming to a conclusion. It was a difficult time which led to a lot of sorrow and heartbreak but it is time to realise that you must analyse what happened then and use some time and space away from everyone and everything to look at all the components and fit the pieces together to work out how you've ended up where you are. You'll realise this lesson was difficult and that you did pull out the strengths of reserve, but it is now time to put your strengths back by doing nothing. Some soul-searching of some self-worth would be good and you will need to reclaim the past by mourning for it and looking back on a wealth of experience, knowledge and wisdom by the integration of other people who are around you. It is time for some solitude and a retreat to look back and to accept that you're now going forwards and after this you can move forwards into a new chapter of life, because you have reclaimed the past and put it where it belongs: in the past. If you don't you will find that this matter hangs over you and you need to give it the time that it deserves to think about the things that have happened and come to terms with acceptance, for it is only by accepting your past that you can move on and invest in your future.