You have chosen the Devil and the 9 of Swords. The Devil is a card of temptation, which usually relates to how we feel other people look at us. For the Devil is all about the destiny we want for ourselves, but also how we feel our reputation is and how the status of other people see us. This sometimes makes us quite materialistic and quite greedy. We go for things because we feel a need to possess, and we see other people doing it and they seem to be doing it so easily, so why can't we? But you realise that this is not as easy as it seems and everyone else is also struggling. In fact, once they've achieved something they want more, and you've realised this is no longer for you, for the mental anguish you're going through is causing you sleepless nights. You are suffering with mental anguish that is causing you to feel exhausted. You're working far too hard. You've become bogged down in materialistic desires. You need to pull back, but you don't know how to. You really do need to take some rest and to see things clearly, for you're choosing to block your own path. The Devil is about enslaving yourself into something where you feel that you are trapped, but really and truly only you can release the chains that bind you to this situation. They are very loose; you are just afraid to take them off. You need to look at things and see another aspect. You need to be more spiritual. You need to have a mind that is clear and free to not be cluttered with the worries of the world. You are a worrier. You think about everyone and everything and you worry about what they're thinking and how they'll view you. This is just a lack of confidence within your own life. You really need to look at what would make you happy for once, and that's about being more comfortable and confident with the kind of person you are. Adopt a more spiritual approach. It will give you much more comfort. You need to do something that will calm you down. Something that is free. Nature and the environment have plenty to offer. Whether it's a walk or being near the water or to going to a park or just doing something to take some time out, it will leave you free and clear to realise that life can be quite enjoyable if you let it. You need to take away the pressures and responsibilities of being so materialistic and opt for more self-worth and a self-sufficient way of life that is probably more humble. You will find that your whole outlook changes. Look at the ways in which you can budget and economise and make the changes gently and slowly so that you make an adjustment for a whole change in your lifestyle, rather than a quick fix that won't last because it's too rigid. This way you are taking control with confidence, for you are someone that does have integrity and you really are only acting with the best intentions for everyone around you. You made a mistake and you've realised it would be better that you are happier as a human being than to be so worried and caught up with material desires and cares of this world.