You have chosen Strength and the 5 of Cups. The 5 of Cups are about emotional disappointments from the past. It shows that you've had a partial loss, probably the mourning and the loss of a relationship that was close to you. You've got to look at what you've still got, for emotional happiness is around the corne.You feel that you've been let down and that things didn't live up to their expectations. This upset has led you to feel bored and apathetic and quite negative. You're turning to the excessive in things that you realise are not very good for you. You're enjoying your own company a little too much and you must realise that anything that you do is to do with inspiration and that's from an emotional source. The Strength card is usually inspiring for it's linked to Leo and Leo is linked to children and hobbies. It's all about our passions in life. We've got to learn how to control our emotions sometimes and that means taking care of the emotions inwardly as well as outwardly. You're someone that usually gets their own way and when you don't you can use that fiery temper of yours against people or you can sulk and then you can't get yourself back on track. Now people need to do what they need to do, as much as you do, but you are to an extreme. If people did not keep you happy you would certainly turn the emotions into apathy, boredom or rage. It's simply getting a balance and yes you've had good reason to have such powerful emotions but you must maintain control of them. This passion that you feel can be quite childish when it comes out. You need to have an innocence where you forget all about it as quickly as you fire up, instead of holding grudges and taking it inwards to the point that you feel that you're exhausted. The Strength card is asking you to maintain control of your powerful emotions and try and keep a lid on some of the emotions you feel and talk them through in a gentle way. You can do it for you have an inner and an outer Strength.